I CAN HEAR YOU NOW: TWELVE EPISODES
“I can hear you now – Twelve Episodes”.
Since the starting point of my research through images was the inability of expressing my malaise during panic attacks due to social norms that would define such an expression as disturbing, my idea was that it had to end with me in order to “close a circle”.
To conclude the path, I sensed that a more personal perspective would be more beneficial in showing what is behind this project, since I realised there are personal elements in everything I create: “Twelve episodes” wants to show, once more, what is the concept behind this project.
The word Episode doesn’t only represent an event or a part of a television or radio program, it is commonly related to Mental Health Disorders to describe a circumscribed period of time in which someone is affected by a specified illness. Choosing the title, then, I didn’t only want to represent something occurring specifically to me, but I also the subject matter itself and the multiplicity of visual languages and creative choices employed so far. It creates a conceptual connection will all previous steps of the this Itinerary.
The title of this section has its origin in the duration of one of my last episodes and those self-portraits show what “remains” of me after those long periods of suffering. In most cases I cannot even hold the camera, so my partner must help me. He has no experience as photographer so, even with my technical support, these images might results “naïf”, but they show the perspective of the person of my life who I have the closest relationship with. What he sees in those moments.
Creating them is quite awkward, not only because they portray my frailty, but also because they expose an intimate relationship through a visual dialogue.
With my work I want to fight the awkward, and yet I constantly feel ashamed and I must remember myself I have the right to
Load… Explode… and Be free.
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